Friday, June 27, 2014

Confessional Friday

Hi Girls-

I hope you all have had a wonderful week.  I'm linking up again with the lovely Leslie over at A Blonde Ambition for her Confessional Friday.  So, here we go...

1)  I confess that I'm counting down the days until I leave on vacation next Thursday.  It's not that I'm tired of my job because well, I've only been at it for a month but I'm so excited to spend lots of quality family and friend time--and to build a sand castle from my 36 Things list, read the others here.
2)  I confess that I haven't followed not one single, solitary World Cup game.  If you like soccer, I think that is awesome but I'll be honest that I haven't seen as many soccer fans EVER until the World Cup came around and then it's like everybody loves soccer. 
3)  I confess that I've been dying for a Krispy Kreme doughnut all week.  I haven't had said doughnut because it is not on my approved eating plan list and probably also because there's not a close Krispy Kreme store that I have to see the infamous "Hot Now" sign on.  If there were, I may have whipped in my little Camry and chowed down.
4)  I confess that I have my first big patch of gray and it's freaking me out!!!!  I've had strands for as long as I can remember.  My mother grayed very early but it didn't really hit me until the last few week.  I've got areas around both of my temples--my July 17th hair appointment can't get here fast enough.
5)  In keeping with the theme of feeling old, I confess that I went with my "niece"(y'all know, the ones that are close enough to be family) to get her first tattoo last night and the tattoo artist asked if I was her mother.  Ugh---she's 23.  I'm 36.  Maybe it's time for a little botox. 
6)  I confess that I started watching Big Brother this week.  I'm a reality TV junkie but don't think I'm going to be putting this one in the rotation. One of the guys is from Albemarle, NC which is two towns over from where I live.  His claim to fame is that he "was Kellie Pickler's high school janitor". Why does this annoy me so much?  I mean, I love country music and I love Kellie Pickler but this contestant looks straight up off the Duck Dynasty show and it makes me wonder if everyone really does think that the South is full of "redneck, country folk"?

Well, ladies, that's all I have for the day.  I hope you all have a super fantastic weekend.

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Thinking Out Loud Thursday

Hi Girls-

So I normally have been posting a "Thankful Thursday" but this post has been gnawing at my gut recently and I decided to put it out there for blogger land to see.  So much happened over my 2.5 month hiatus so I'm trying to get caught up for myself so that I can look back at this later and remember certain times and what I was feeling.  Unfortunately, life isn't all about rainbows and unicorns.  I know we all know that.  I know we all know that life doesn't always go as we planned.  But when bad things happen to people we love, I go into nurture mode and want to fix it.  In the past, I've found myself to be a great fixer but nearly a month ago I found myself in a situation that I couldn't fix and honestly, it is still very troubling to me. 

On May 17th, the little town that I live in was invaded by hundreds of thousands of race fans.  I don't do Nascar.  As a matter of fact, it is the time of year where the locals don't leave their home, and if they do it is in the opposite direction of the race track.  I was on a great high--I had just traveled home from a great 2nd interview which resulted in a job offer, was throwing a lingerie shower for a dear friend of mine's daughter who is getting married in July and was spending the afternoon with my friend D and her 3 beautiful children.  The middle child had convinced me to have a sleepover that night and her mom was running home to get clothes for her.  All the happiness of the day from accepting a new job, having a great bridal shower and fun with the kids came to a screeching halt when I received devastating news that one of my best friend's daughter's boyfriend had been killed in a motorcycle accident near the speedway. 

Times like this make you question so many things and feelings of my past rise to the surface.  I'm a "pusher downer" folks---and if you don't know what that is, it means that I push all my bad feelings, sadness and grief down to the most inner part of my being.  I don't talk about it (which is a reason I started this blog).  Unfortunately, when bad things happen, these feelings begin to fester and start to cause an immense sense of anguish, denial and hurt.  It becomes hard to focus on the good and all the great things in my life that I have been blessed with.  He was only 25.  Why him?  He had such promise and such a long life ahead of him. Why do things like this happen?  I know that is an answer I will probably never know but it still something I struggle with nonetheless. 

So, why did I decide to write this post that is obviously still very fresh, sad and horrible?  I wrote it because I've dealt with a lot of death in my life.  My heart has hurt so much in my past and I would be lying if I said that I still didn't question God with why he chose to take my wonderful parents.  But I've never lost a partner--someone I loved romantically or even worse a child.  Everyone deals with their grief differently and no one can tell you when you should or even if you are going to be ok.  But leaning on God in these times of trouble really can provide comfort.  I know--if you've been through it, easier said than done.  However, this whole situation has made me view things differently and to make a real effort not to take things in life for granted.  There were several young adults that came to know Christ at this young man's memorial service which is absolutely amazing.  The impact that he made on other's life was astounding, amazing and completely unexpected.  I can only hope that when it is my time, there are that many people with amazing stories that they want to share about me. 

RIP CJP 5/17/14---you will be missed!

I pray that if you are reading this and are struggling with feelings of doubt, pain, anguish or whatever that you may be dealing with that you remember this verse.  He has a much bigger plan and purpose for you---one that most likely you don't even know yet.

"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you not harm you, plans to give you a hope and future." Jeremiah 29:11

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Wordless Wednesday

Hi Girls!

OK, so I'm kind've going against the point of wordless Wednesday by writing anything here but this was from my birthday party on May 10th---after my mud run, if you haven't read it yet, you can see it here.  I had the best time laughing, eating and fellowshipping with some of the best friends this gal could every ask for! 36 doesn't seem so bad after all. 

Enjoy!



















Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Let's Get Muddy Y'all!

Hi Girls-

So I promised y'all mud and that's what y'all are going to get.  Let me preface this post by saying that I seriously have the bestest friends ever in the world.  Friends that didn't mind getting mud in places that one shouldn't ever have mud--like for real!  One of my "36 Things to Do" was to do another mud run--even though every time I do one I say that I will never do it again, read about the other 35 things here.  This year's event was the Lozilu Mud Run.  It was for girls only and the proceeds went to children's cancer research.  This also fell right on my 36th birthday so it couldn't have been a better birthday gift from all my chicas.  The girls that ran with me ranged in age from 16-60 something (one of which was my 4th grade school teacher).  I have never laughed so hard as I did during this run and once you look at all the photos below you will see why.  Biggest snafu was they ran out of water by the time we got done which means a whole bunch of muddy girls stripping down in a parking lot and trying to scrape as much off as possible before getting in the car. 

Enjoy the photos y'all! 


My Team "Pretty in Pink"

No words--just simply perfect!
My sweet Kattie!
 
Showing some leg!
 
Do you know how hard it is to get 8 girls to jump at the same time?  We must've done this 12 times.
 
I told this little guy it was my birthday and I was old and he held my hand the entire way.

Now you see why I needed someone to hold my hand.  Next shot would have been me flat on my face.


 

We did it!  Nobody got seriously injured and it was a blast!

 
My awesome sister and photographer who walked the entire course with us and took over 432 photos of the event.  See y'all, I spared you by not showing you all of them :)  You are welcome!

Julie to the rescue---this was after we learned there was no more water.  Say what?!?

The new Mike's Hard Lemonade poster child

So, what did we do?  We went to our friend's house and jumped in her pool.  It was a muddy mess.

My friend Christy pretty much sums it all up in this photo. 

All in all, this was one of my most favorite races to date.  Not only did I get to run it with some of my best girlfriends ever but I got to spend my birthday doing something fun and crazy proving to myself that I'm not that old after all.  I highly suggest it to all!

Friday, June 20, 2014

Confessional Friday

Morning Y'all-

Wow, what a week!  OK, so I haven't done a great job in blogging this week but I do have 3 awesome drafts that I am putting the final touches.  I'm telling you this because it is more of an accountability thing for me.  It's been a great week, getting a bit more acclimated to my new job and figuring out a few more things as I go along.  Well, let's get to it...I'm linking up again with the lovely Leslie over at blondeambitionblog.com.  I really did miss this while I was on sabbatical from blogging and this is something I thought about every week even if I didn't put it down here.  Here we go, this week's edition of my confessions.

1)  I confess that I fell down my stairs...again...this week.  Thankfully, I didn't get hurt.  I actually slid down them on my booty more than falling but it still hurt nonetheless.  I will never...let me repeat NEVER own another two story house.  I'm also thankful that I didn't land on my girls (aka toy poodles) because that would have definitely been a vet visit for sure. 
2)  I confess that my sister spent the night at my house on Wednesday night and it was great.  She was taking care of some things at our other house and her husband was working late so she and her four legged children stayed with me.  We didn't do anything crazy but it was perfect spending one on one time with her.  I miss that she doesn't live so close to me anymore.
3)  I confess that I got dressed every single day this week before 8am---well, not including today because as I'm typing this, I am in my pajamas still...but as soon as I am done, I will be getting dressed to get this work day started.  It's just so easy to mosey on over two rooms to my office without getting myself made up in the morning.
4)  I confess that I received my first paycheck in over 2 months---boy did it feel great to have a deposit in my account vs. a withdrawal.  Thank you Lord for providing!
5)  I confess that I have so many household projects that I want to do that I find myself being a little overwhelmed.  So, I've decided to go room by room and my first project is going to be my office.  Now that I'm working from home, I really want to have a place to work that is cool and fun.  Pictures to follow.
6) My favorite confession is that I booked my tickets to Germany and my hotel in Amsterdam for the extra few days I'll be staying next month.  I need to buy a camera (I'll take suggestions) so that I can document every single thing--who knows when I will have an opportunity to go back?

Alright ladies, I hope you all have a super fantastic weekend! 

Friday, June 13, 2014

Confessional Friday


Hi Girls-

I'm linking up with the lovely Leslie over at blondeambitionblog.com for the first time in a few months and I'm really excited.  There are so many things that I have to confess but at the risk of completely boring you I'm going to try to pull out my best confessions possible.  So, let's get to it friends, here we go.

1)  I confess that now that I am officially working from home I am finding it hard not to stay in my pajamas all day to work.  It's easy on Monday and Wednesday because those are the days I have to work out with my trainer in the morning but if I'm being completely transparent I'm writing this post on Thursday at 5:30 in the afternoon and yes, I am still in my jammies.  Fail for the day!  Goal for next week, get dressed everyday!
2)  I confess that I used lotion in my hair last week when I was in Memphis.  Why you ask?  Because it was my first week of work and I was traveling with my boss and didn't realize I had left all my hair products at home until I was getting dressed in the hotel that morning.  It was crazy humid in TN and I felt that had I not put something on it, I would have looked like Chaka Khan by the end of the day therefore possibly causing my new boss to question why he hired me. Honestly, it didn't work out that bad. 
3)  I confess that I ended up going commando at the airport last week.  Why you ask again?  In an effort to mark a few things off my 36 Things List, I went out and bought some new panties to replace some of the more raggedy ones that should have been retired years ago.  Well, I apparently didn't buy the right size because as I was walking through the airport, I felt things getting kind've breezy down under.  They were quickly shimmying past my hips and over my thighs.  Girls, I actually had hiney exposed on the right side (under my dress of course).  In a moment of panic, I started rushing to find the nearest bathroom which unfortunately happened to be about 200 yards away (what felt like 200 miles).  By the time I got there, I was literally holding up said panties with my left hand and pulling my suitcase with my right hand.  I had already decided that had they fallen down around my ankles while I was in mid-stride I was going to step out and keep walking.  I mean, really, how many people would have actually seen me?  Right?
4)  I confess that I am growing my hair out and it is officially at that "oh I hate my hair and I want to cut it off" stage but I'm trying to push past it which is the reason why I didn't schedule my next appointment until mid-July.
5)  I confess that although I love shopping for all my business clothes at Dress Barn, I feel the need to start a petition asking them to change their name.  I just can't feel good buying clothes from a store that has the word "Barn" in it. 
6)  I confess that Father's Day weekend is tough for me because I haven't celebrated one with my daddy in over 18 years and I really try to just push it out of my mind.  But with that said, I am still so thankful for the time I had with my wonderful father and all the fantastic men who have stepped up trying to fill a void.  If you still have your dad, give him extra hug and love--not only on Father's Day but everyday. 

That's all I have girls!  I hope you all have the bestest weekend ever.  Come back next week as I'm going to be talking about mud, birthdays, love and grief.

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Thankful Thursday

Hi Girls-

In the spirit of trying to do much better on my blog, I'm taking the easy way out ;)  I know, not really but I love lists and any excuse to make a list about well, anything makes me happy.  So without further adieu, here are some of the things I am thankful for this Thursday.

1)  I am thankful for my fur-babies Simone and Serena who turned 12 on Monday.  They had a perfect day of lounging (which is no different from any other day) but today they had a special treat of Frosty Paws.

2)  I am thankful that I had the willpower to turn down the rice when I went out to dinner last night at the Japanese hibachi place.  I am a carb lover and top that rice with some yummy shrimp sauce and I am in heaven but I turned it down.  Take that fat cells!
3)  I know I mentioned it in my post earlier this week but I am super thankful for my new job. 
4)  In line with the new job, I am thankful for all the people that helped me throughout the 4 month process when I was looking and the many that prayed for me and did everything in their power to lift my spirits when I was down. 
5)  Also in line with the new job, I am thankful for the awesome samples I received in the mail this week.  I officially have no excuse for not having a clean house.
6) I'm thankful for my little garden I have growing in my backyard.  I feel most certain it will die because it is all in pots but for now, it looks really good and is growing quite well.


Come back tomorrow girls for my link up with Leslie over at "A Blonde Ambition."  It's been a while so I've got some great confessions coming.

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

OMG, My How Time Flies

Hi Girls-

Wow, has it really been 2.5 months since I took to writing here?  Honestly, I'm kind've embarrassed that I haven't been on here and I really have absolutely not one single, solitary excuse as to why I haven't been writing.  I've had the time, I've had the ideas but I just haven't felt very blog worthy.  And I really like it here--I like sharing stories and ideas and saying things that I wouldn't say out loud to most people but I just haven't had the gumption to actually put pen to paper or in this case, finger to screen :)  I haven't even been reading my favorite blogs that I used to follow religiously.  I think I just "blogged out" for a time being.  But, hey, I'm back so let's get all that out of the way so I can be excited about writing again. 

So---a lot has changed in the 2.5 months I went MIA.  Last I wrote, I was still looking for a job and starting a weight loss challenge with my super awesome accountability partner.  Well, praise the Lord, after countless and I do mean countless interviews (to which I now call myself an interview expert) I landed a great job and I started last week.  As a matter of fact, I had two offers come in at almost the same time and I was able to actually make a decision to what I felt would work best for me.  I prayed, wrote out the pros and cons, prayed some more and I really feel at peace that I made the right decision.  I am now the National Account Manager at Unger Global--they are a professional cleaning products company and I am super stoked about it because I love cleaning.  Strange, I know but I'm one of those people who when I'm stressed, I clean---you can only imagine how clean my house was during my 4 months of looking for a job.  But keep praying for me as I go on this new journey!  OK, the weight loss challenge---let me first start out by saying that losing weight is tough (insert rolling eyes because everyone knows that) and it's so easy to fall off the wagon but I have to give a mad shout out to my accountability partner who has "kicked fat in the butt" by losing over 30 pounds.  Me, eh, not so great.  I'm about 10 pounds down.  No excuses but I'm a stress eater and not having a job didn't exactly work in my favor but the point is that I am back on track, joined the Y and am really trying to stay on track.  Of course, I'll fall down but hopefully it won't take me a week to get back up.  Also, I gave up drinking for the month of June--don't get me wrong, I am no lush but I'm a lover of wine and this is harder than I thought it would be. 

Other great news is that I'm traveling to Germany with my job (insert super excited, still can't believe it face) which is also crazy cool because I get to cross off one of my 36 things to do list.  As a matter of fact, I need to go back over my list because I think I may have crossed off one of two more since March as well. 

Alright girlies, I don't want to make this a novel on my first day back and I hope that if you were reading before you will come back and read again but I promise to be back.  Not only is this therapeutic, it really is fun!